violomana

As soon as I got home yesterday from AP US review, I climbed into bed, clothes and all, and fell asleep. At four in the afternoon.

I got up this morning around eight. Disgusting and disoriented, someone told me people were coming over today. Thus began the cleaning campaign. To Andrea Bocelli.

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When Dony turned on the washing machine, I asked, "What kind of load are you washing?" I just thought I might have some laundry I could add in there.

"It's all of Savoth dirty clothes, from when he left."

( Oh. )


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In the end, our company ended up canceling on us.
Well, at least the house is sanitary.

Now it's 3:30. Our "Spring Cleaning" is done.

So for me, it's finally Spring Break.
I'm free. Kinda. No, not really.

*sighs*

I suppose I could pretend,
if only for a little while,
to be in Euphoria.


Vio's Column of the Day:
( What's the Deal with Scholarships These Days?! )

~ * ~ * ~ * ~
A roll of white paper towels
Unfurls in the light kitchen breeze
As the hidden drenched roots emerge,
Their new growths branching to tease.

Seasons are now changing
and Earth's Life hoping
to find Nature at Her Prime.

So cause for Celebrations.
Happy Spring Break to everyone
and to everyone, Good Times.

[End Otaku Note-Link:
Samurai Champloo, Paranoia Agent, Escaflowne: The Movie and other goodies are coming to Adult Swim this summer. ^.^]

Is it just me, or has this week been killer?

Everyone pushing right before spring break.

( How much more can I take? )


So what the hell was up with this...( drama in Imaginary Land class today? )

....

( And then how did I get on this tangent about social people interactions? )


It is
Early in the Morning
And Late in the Night

Concentrated Sweetness
in melted Strawberries
Syrup, so light

Wholesome Goodness
in Dryers Ice Cream
smooth and natural

With added Cruchiness
in lonely Corn Flakes
for a small Smackeral
Winne the Pooh, yo

Plus insant Coffee.

Geez, I'm such a Pig.

[I should probably start my logarithm paper now... XD]

Shit. It's midnight, Saturday morning. There are possums everywhere, and the SAT is in 7 hours.

My sisters are out to Food4Less to get booze and snacks b/c it's their birthday, as well as my brother's. Kinda.

And we're going to stay up watching Samurai Champloo.
B/c our satellite's messed up
so the only thing we're getting is Jesus TV, Spanish soccer,
and scientists pretending to be robots on NASA TV.
I'm not kidding.

I also haven't finished any HW. Doesn't mean that I didn't try this afternoon. I just didn't finish...

Oh yeah. Joanie called an set me an appointment. I get to go to therapy after school on April 1st, somewhere on Euclid Street in Anaheim.

So yeah. Go me.

"ACHTUNG!

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So I'm a bit materialistic. Can I help it if I need something tangible to let me know that I'm here, that this place exists?

[And sorry about being so obsessive,
but I seriously see something new everytime I watch it.
The very emotional core of the relationships in this series
is summed up right here.
*takes a refreshingly sad breath*
So escape into this Euphoria]

OMG, maybe it's just the Coffee
Or Maybe I'm just Overemotional right now

But...

I'm Shaking and on the verge of Tears

Not from Sadness
And not from Stress

It is from the Heart
Where Everyone's
True Unconditional Love is Hidden
And the Love and Joy found there
That I weep.

[LuV & jOy oF FrUiTs BaSkEt]

Mmm, just signed up for SAT IIs (May 7th), set a DMV appointment, and got jacksparrowlvr onto AnimeMusicVideos.org. Score!

( AMVs & I (this is for Giselle when she starts watching vids) )


And then Mary just told me Joanie called the lab at Kaiser for me today.

( Bill of Health )


*coughs*

Okay, I was not going to take cough medicine until I got done with hw so I don't fall asleep. But Kieu tricked me into taking some. Crap.

And now my cough is worse for some reason. I swear, I couldn't speak two words without racking my throat. o_O

Watch me screw myself over as I fall asleep on top of my AP Chem book.

_-_

ack, I'm having trouble writing!

( Okay: I'm backtracking to Saturday and freaking out about birthdays right now. Don't mind me (unless you can help). )

*sighs*
What am I going to do????

( Okay: Random Family-ness. Don't mind me. )

With that note...

*gasps*

Check it out: I'm starting on AP US Hist hw right NOW.
XD

[Thanks ariavaswen for putting up with me about SATs and AP Chem so late at night]

I am in such a blogging mood right now. Don't ask why. Maybe it's the AP problems...but...oh yeah. Nevermind. That's it.

Anyway, that Y-HAVE meeting today didn't go as well as I thought. I felt pretty useless, redundant, and basically an outsider during the whole time. I kinda wanted to stay in the bathroom. But y'know, that's just me being me.

I guess I know now that I'd rather avoid uncomfortable situations. This isn't the first time, though. I feel it at the homeless shelter, at Camp OCHSA, on the train, during group projects, at Fran's, at work, during AP Chem, walking around school, in San Clemente, at the mall, and especially back when I was in Chamber Orchestra.

*sighs*
Maybe I'm just paranoid.


But other than that, today was okay.

I still feel really bad about how I've been ditching Kuppies recently. Katie and I do want to become more involved with it, but it's just so hard with everything else we've got! I mean, the team's going to compete in Arizona next week and we've only been to practice a couple of times! The meet just came out of the blue for some reason.

But Katie and I are determined to stick it through and make an OCHSA team next year! Then maybe we can enter for this scholarship....

OK, so instead of working on AP problems...

All those crazy time-wasters! W00t!

Stolen from... well... everyone else at LJ!
Fun with GIS! (Google Image Search)(Use the first picture it shows!)

1.place you grew up
2.place you live now
3.favorite cartoon
4.favorite food
5.favorite drink
6.favorite song
7.favorite smell
8.favorite shoes

Then post it in your journal
( Ta-da! )


Also taken from everyone else at LJ:

( YOUR FRESHMAN YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL )


And taken from Markster:

( LJ Whorage )


Just in case you really needed to know all that about me....

Well, today I had to choose between training and...training.

So, I'm leavin in like 8 minutes to go to this Red Cross Y-HAVE session three block away from OCHSA b/c.... I dunno. Someone stop me. Now.

And did you know Holly Hodges is in charge of it? God, I was freaked out when I first went in. She's like.... EVERYWHERE, and always with a smile on her face.

Kinda creeps me out, no offense.

But I really wish I could go to KillerGuppies practice (I hope Katie isn't there all by herself ><), but when I started hacking a lung this morning, I decided it was for the best. I think I'm caught something from one of the kids at the Shelter for the Homeless place....

God, I'm such an extraciricular freak...

[I'll do those LJ time-waster things when I get home (1:30ish).]

It's rather odd
My brother is watching a comedy movie on HBO
About a naval submarine crew
All singing "Louie Louie" in the back quarters
And talking about getting off
Going AWOL

Very strange.


Otherwise....

VIO'S FUN LINKS!
[Recommended for those with at least Macromedia Flash.
Cable modem is a definite plus.]

From AnimeNewsNetwork.com, The Not-So-Daily Link of the Day:

Real Otaku Heroes
My favorites are:
1.)"Mr. Unwashed Convention Attendee"
    [which I'm guessing is based on ACen's T-shirt and slogan]
2) "Mr. Female Character Cosplayer"
    Note the juxposition of the Mr. and Female.



Also, if you already haven't seen this:
Iloveeggs.com
Thanks to Markster for this link.
"Come into my tummy, Oh so very yummy!"

Today's Imaginary Land
Is "a quiet purse in Northern Asia".

Where "Joe's tree lengthens"
And a "tangerine rash on his inner thigh"
Can make "killer blue-footed boobies".

But he is unfotumately not an
"Abercrombie&Fitch Hottie".

[A found poem from today's class. Some material may be obscured from memory.]

Mmm, and what do you know?
Diana spent 2 hours playing dress up!

Mmm, and what do you know?
Someone is back from Sin City.

Mmm, and what do you know?
Diana's getting kick off right now.

And holy crap....!

Just a little coffee equals
Diana on Caffiene!
With lots of stinky sugar,
But no milk, honey or creme.

At one in the mornin'
And homework still to be done,
What can Diana do
But have some spazzy fun?

Since we have not seen
A lot of me
For quite some time,
Let's begin with a simple question:
"Why haven't you dropped a line?"


My brother (again) came to stay.
But, Shhhh! Don't tell anyone!
Because it is the Big Bad Navy
From which he's trying to run away.

He dropped off his computer
While using ours during all hours.
Which was fine by me,
Because then he wasn't sour.

Now his whereabouts are in Vegas,
For today, a messege he finally did send,
After randomly leaving us and
Being missing for the entire weekend.


Meanwhile, I was working three productions
Of OCHSA's Twelfth Night play
(Which was rather excellent
and hilarious, by the way).
Now I think I've had all the Shakespeare
To be had in these past four days.

Then I had my another
Friday Detention, too.
Gasp! Diana is such a bad girl!
What are we going to do?

Oh, and there was the "physical",
But it's was more "psychological" overall.
Now Diana gets to have therapy!
If she would just take the 1-800 and call.


Yet, if you think about it
'Tis not very much.
So let's just face it:
Diana always puts herself in a crunch!

With everyone telling me
I need an attitude adjustment,
It stresses me out even more
And makes me just wanna vent.

And that's exactly what this is.
Because what else are blogs good for?
Now my head is getting dizzy.
Check back (but not too soon) for more.



Wait, wait, wait.
Just one final thought:
If this is all I show of me,
Then maybe this blog SHOULD be shot?

What a rollercoaster of a weekend
This dark and lonely train ride "Home".

Under broken flourescent bulbs,
Five men type away
On their business laptops,
They somehow light the way.

Next stop: San Clemente.
An open concrete platform
Tells me no one's there
To give me shelter from the storm.


From there, I shamefully cry.
And now,
In another's warm and baggy PJs,
I lie.


Before A Nation of Wimps
The long speech began.
Oh, how I desperately wish
I could turn back those hands.

With choices scattered
And voices that still matter,
It's no wonder
I cast myself from the ladder.

With a new angel's hark,
This mood has become lighter.
Yet so much is still dark,
What can you decipher?

Well, besides having yet another breakdown, this time in AP US...
(wow, not in AP Chem for once, which was a nice change....kinda...considering we were taking a pop DBQ, but at least Marie *hugs!* and Meghan *note* were there to help...Geez, I'm such a cry baby ^^')

Today was...ok.

Alan's valentine totally cheered me up, though. Because we're learning future tense in French right now, the valentine project is suppose to be a fortune of your "sweetheart".

He made this origami flower that had a note saying stuff like:
"Après tu gradues... Tu iras à une université brillant. Tu apprendras tout tu veux et tu auras la carrière de vos rêves.
[After you graduate... You will go to a brilliant university. You will learn all that you want and you will have the career of your dreams.]

Very sweet. Exactly what I needed to make me work harder...I think.

I wanna make him something just as special, too.
^_^
In, fact, I wanna make valentines for everyone in my French class, and everyone I know while I'm at it.


And helping Fallon, Jacqualine, and Briana at the shelter today cheered up my mood as well.

It somehow surprised me
as I realized that struggling with
7 year olds to complete
a simple spelling worksheet
and pre-school puzzles
made us all feel a little smarter...


Tu réussirez à la vie. Tu seras heureuse.
[You will succeed in life. You will be happy.]

Hey! You wanna read the conclusion part of my lab that's worth 20 points?


Conclusion:
I have concluded that I really hated this lab, that I hate all labs in general, and I still hate this class even more than ever. XP


It makes me giggle whenever I scroll down to the bottom of my report, hoping to see a perfect conclusion that was written out of Thin Air for me.


*eats weirdo Asian lentil-bean cake/rice thing...*

Actually, I'd rather have the calculations done for me, because they all look the same.... Natural log, divide concentration, find blue stuff, divide by number of drops...I don't know...


*takes another bite*

Whoa! There's peppered meat in here!

[*sigh*
Will I ever change?
Will I ever stop complaining and work?
Will I ever prioritize myself and my time?
At this point I wanna say, "Yes."
But at this point, I just don't care anymore.
I'm tired.]

Pwah hah.

I get to stay home
play hooky
and still be miserable.


I do have some legit excuses though:

- I was babysitting all weekend (it was my first and only overnight gig @_@).

- It was Chinese New Year on Super Bowl Sunday and I had to go have dinner with my family in San Dimas.

- My sister monopolized the computer, finishing her midterm until 5 this morning.


Other than that....
[and the fact that I bought FFX for $10 this weekend]

*tummy growls*

Mmmm, time for second breakfast.

Someone kill me now... Please.


Maybe I'm being melodramatic. Maybe I'm being a brat because I don't care if I can't manage my time, and no one else in my family does either. Or maybe, according to our teacher, my "womanly hormones are off-balanced."

*rolls eyes*
Whatever.
I'm not some frikkin' unsolved chemical reaction equation.
My ovaries don't have coefficients, dammit.


But I have seriously spent the last 2 weeks reading the damn textbook, doing the online tutorial, trying to miserably attempt the AP questions and struggling through this tedious lab.

And I find myself looking back at the starting line. Unsurprisingly enough, I have only progressed a foot in the thousand-mile race known as...

AP CHEMISTRY.



I think any class that makes

the A students want to drop it from sheer frusteration

and

the C students want to commit suicide
because they've realized life is truly pointless

should be taken off the cirriculum....



Other than that, I've been dandy.
Did I mention I got a cable modem?


Yeah, I'm back. Again.
More depressed than ever.
Just thought you'd like to know.

Hopefully, it's just another phase.
Too bad I've felt this way for a while.
Even before AP Chem started to become hell on earth.


I think it was just the catalyst that lowered my activation level enough for me to react.

[Wait, don't quote me on that. It's either 1) not clear enough 2) not worded correctly 3) sounds too much like the given answer, b/c heaven forbid I get an answer that sounds like the actual answer or 4) it is just wrong conceptually all together.] -5 points

Dammit.

I wrote this whole thing and...

*sighs*

Nevermind.

I give up.